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Controlled By Routine

Good Morning everyone! Another lengthy post ahead… πŸ˜€

I went on a run this morning despite the on and off rain we have been experiencing since yesterday. It is quite warm out at least, and I ran in shorts and short sleeve, more evidence that we are approaching the wondrous warm weather πŸ™‚ Running the rain (as long as it’s not too cold!) always makes me feel intense, kind of bad ass? Haha, I am slightly embarrassed to admit that but I usually feel really powerful in this kind of weather, which I did today.

(source of picture)

I completed 9 miles in 1 hour and 10 minutes and felt increasingly more energized as the distance went by. Like I mentioned yesterday, I listened to South of Broad by Patrick Conroy on my iPod and once again, made the time go by quite fast. This book is really compelling so far and some of the descriptions make me want to move to the South pronto!

On my run this morning I realized how much I love working out in the early morning, to start my day and to get it over with the rest of the day. I usually do enjoy my workouts, but I still like to complete them, shower and then do whatever else I need to do without a workout impending on my thoughts. This goes along with my addiction to exercising, but I also can’t remember the last time I didn’t work out in the morning- this isn’t at the crack of dawn though! I don’t have class until 11:15 each day so I go for a run/gym around 7:30 which gives me plenty of time to shower after and get ready for the day.

Reflecting on this workout routing allows me to see how much I am love, depend on and am attached to my daily routine. I get up, workout, sort of eat breakfast, go to class, have an hour to do work until lunch, eat lunch, go to my remaining classes, blog, or do homework the rest of the afternoon depending on the day, go to dinner or have dinner in my room, go on the computer a bit more/watch tv, and then go to bed preferably before 10:30 pm. Yep, not exactly a thrilling routine but one that I have become used to and when this schedule is disturbed, or a requirement comes up that was unexpected, my anxiety flourishes, I am irritated and cannot handle the change well.

I can understand now that my routine provides a sense of “comfort” for myself, which goes right along with desiring to have complete control over what I eat/when I eat, exercising, and how my own body looks. I get truly nervous and upset when any part of my routine is disturbed. For example, if I have an unexpected meeting around the time I usually have lunch, I get pissed because my usual lunch time has to change, and I have to maneuver what I am going to eat, or if I have to bring it with me, etc.

Last summer, I would wake up run/workout, eat fruit for breakfast, get anxious if I ate anything else, pack my lunch (salad, no fat sources, egg whites), go to the beach (if I was not working that day), come home and try not to snack until dinner (I always did because duh, I was hungry) which would include a large sweet potato with Greek yogurt, an apple and spinach. I would try not to eat dinner before 7:30 because I feared being hungry before going to bed. Well why not just eat something then right? Nooo because that would be a disturbance in my schedule of course!

My older brother Tucker was living with us for a few weeks last summer and sometimes he liked to have friends over, which gasp, coincided with my dinner time. I didn’t like eating in front of anyone besides my family so I would get so angry when someone unexpectedly came over and disrupted me. I felt I was being judged by his friends, which was not true at all, and they are people I have known for years. They probably couldn’t care less what I was doing and came over to see Tucker, not to see what I was eating. I was so crazed at that point and my attitude lead my brother and I to fight a lot last summer, something I truly regret. I hope he understands it was not completely about him, and that any changes to my daily routine were simply not allowed with me.

Another story:Β  as an RA, emergencies occur usually on the weekends and in the middle of the night which require me to get up. “OH NO! I’m going to miss out on my usual 8-9 hours, my workout the next morning is not going to be as successful, I am going to be tired the rest of the day, and my eating will be off!” During these incidents I turn into an unpleasant bitch, as if the world is revolving around me and I am the only one that is affected by a disturbance in sleep. However, the other members of my staff obviously have to get up too and they put on a smile and deal with the situation in a necessary fashion.

 

We had to clear these boxes in the middle of the night after move-in day! Fire Safety Issues

This is all about food, which I have come to realize and can admit to. I want to eat the food that I want to eat, when I want it, and in the environment of my choice. This is why going out to a restaurant that is unfamiliar causes me to become a nervous wreck. What if there is nothing I want to eat? Or what if everything is smothered in butter/oil? What if we have to wait and I have to eat later in the evening then I want to? I might still be hungry after eating! <– These are all the thoughts plaguing me when I go out to eat and prevents me from enjoying the company I am with and the chance to be in a new environment trying something new. All I can think of is how this unfamiliar food and change in my routine is going to make me FAT.

What a way to live right? No, this needs to stop and I think recognizing this is a necessary first step. Again, this goes along with my addiction to exercise and my anxiety when I take a day off. Resting for a day is a change in my intensive workout schedule, and my irrational thinking= I will lose everything I have worked for, lose muscle, gain fat, blah blah blah. For so long I have believed that my controlling my routine and every aspect of my life would make me happier, but in fact, holding on to my “schedule” has increasingly upset me and make me cling to even more. I am petrified of letting go of this routine but know I need to.

Perhaps people can relate to this? Does anyone else turn into an irrational bitch if something is slightly off? I do not think this is a great quality to have at all, and “going with the flow” is a goal of mine I am determined to achieve and make a peace of mind with my once controlling schedule. πŸ™‚

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Favorite Running Products

If you haven’t read my post about my compulsive exercising, check it out if you would like! It is a very important topic to me and one where I must listen to my own damn advice and not just preach about what I SHOULD be doing!

My “career” with running started only a few years ago, when I was 18. As I have discussed on the running and races page, I used to loathe running and couldn’t comprehend how people actually enjoyed voluntarily engaging in this activity for pleasure and fun. To me, running= torture. Not so fond memories of earlier running experiences were in Middle school when we were forced to run a mile on the track as part of a fitness test most kids had to go through.

Well I barely finished the mile but did manage to get 12:30 which I was fairly proud of! The next year when I was 14, I banged it out in 8:45 and figured that was the fastest I would ever go. However, the combination of quitting swimming when I was 18, with diligently building my miles, speed and endurance over several years, I can run a mile a whole lot faster!

From this….

To this! πŸ˜€

With the continuous engagement into the world of running, I learned to become particularly attached to a few products along the way that I consider essential for successful runs! *Note- I am not trying to advertise any of these/none were went to me, I just wanted to share what helps me run πŸ™‚

Asics- Kayano 17. It seems I have been sucked into the high-tech shoe craze, but I have to admit, I absolutely love these sneakers! I have bought the same brand and kind for the last three years and these are the only ones that have not hurt me in anyway. I overpronate, which means my foot rolls in too much when every time I come down on my feet. It is ideal to have normal pronation, or the inward roll of the foot and in particular the heel and arch which occurs naturally at the heel strike as a cushioning method. (Source) I know there is much skepticism around whether “minimalist shoes” such as the Vibram Five Fingers are actually the best for a human body, but for now I’m sticking with these. Check out this article from Runner’s World, if you are interested in finding out more about minimalist shoes! And this brings me to my next favorite…

I look forward to Runner’s World every month! I love the tips and suggestions for runners and athletes, but also the quirky articles from various authors, and updated information on all the elite runners out there.

Under Armor’s Cold Weather gear running tights. Trust me, I know these are expensive, but they have been a great investment! Especially this past epic winter when I would sometimes be running in 10 degree weather (that’s my limit), at least my legs stayed toasty warm!

This is a great, inspirational read that I feel every athlete or anyone into fitness should read to give themselves a motivating kick in the butt! The book made me want to ditch my running shoes and go gallivanting into the dessert to simply run! Well that thought crossed my mind only for a second, then I read the perils the group went through!

My iPod, a nano in particular. This is a good size for running/walking because it’s quite small and doesn’t weigh my arm down at all, where I listen to it on an armband during a run. I also have mentioned that listening to books on my iPod is my favorite new thing to past the time! If I am just going for a casual run, it is so nice to zone out to the book I am listening to and like I said, it makes the miles fly by. I am currently listening to South of Broad by Pat Conroy which is amazing so far! Full review when I finish πŸ™‚

The first time I tried these was during my first half-marathon (I know I should have tested them before, newbie mistake!) and I really feel they helped to give me that extra push during the race. I ate two around mile 7 and 11, and definitely felt a bit more energized.

Well these are my favorite running products! I also have a very basic stop watch from target that I use to time myself but would love a Garmin or similar watch. I’m a bit too poor at the moment to buy one though πŸ™‚

*What are some of your favorite running/work out/walking products? I like hearing input from others to maybe incorporate some of their goods into my life!

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Boston’s Run To Remember

I have been enjoying writing this blog so much so far. It has been a great way for me to get out my thoughts, and simply reflect on my life. But honestly, the best part has been how people have responded to some of my posts or contacted me. It makes this whole experience so fulfilling to know that others understand and it motivates me to keep going with this delightful new hobby!

The direction of the blog still seems pretty unclear to me. I enjoy writing about what is on my mind, some daily eats, favorite products, people in my life, memories, and fitness. I am sorry if it seems all over the place, I am trying to get it into a more organized plan πŸ™‚

Okay back to this post!

RA work last night was quite an interesting experience! A few write-ups of note, a guy pulled an EXIT sign down on the 4th floor and made all of the lights go out in the building…this led to the alarms going off and emergency maintenance had to come asap! All was resolved, for the most part, the guy that pulled the sign down ran away and doesn’t live in the building so we couldn’t catch em! Grrr…Β  Other worthy mentions, a girl fight right outside the office I sit in! Everything was resolved though πŸ™‚

As I talk about often, running is one of my favorite forms of fitness and I keep myself motivated in the sport by singing up for different road races around the area. I have completed a number of 5ks, a few 10ks and 4 and 5 mile distances. Last year however, I took a major step in my running by singing up for a half-marathon, Boston’s Run To Remember! Although I was running cross country last year, I had never completed a run longer than 9 miles, but I believed I could do it.

I didn’t follow a specific plan, but continued doing some workouts with the track team, a long run on Saturdays (9-11 miles) and strength work during the week. This plan seemed to work for me because as much as I enjoy the sport, I do not like running more than two days in a row. I feel sluggish on the third day and usually am not into it.

On May 30th, I woke up atΒ  5 am and drove with my lovely mother to the Seaport Hotel, where the race began. On my way I hate greek yogurt and a banana, but realize now how much more I should have eaten before this long race. My mom tolerated me as I became nervous and bossy when I thought we were going to get lost..we didnt though and made it with plenty of time to spare!

I had picked up my race packet the day before so that saved a lot of stress and time the morning of the race. The race was starting at 7:30 but it was already 75 degrees out and climbing. It was supposed to be a hot one that day, ah well can’t do anything about the weather bu embrace it πŸ™‚ And I did just that, I realized I was going to be sweating bullets so needed to hydrate throughout the race. The course was relatively flat, with a few small inclines every so often, but truly nothing of concern.

It was a slow start while people spread out, but I met got up to pace around the second mile. Right from the beginning though, I felt so energized and simply awesome! . I completed this half-marathon, a distance I had never officially practiced. I finished with a time of 1:40, and let me tell you, I was so surprised!

This year on May 29th, I am participating in Boston’s Run To Remember again, and this year have a goal to PR! Last year it was to finish, now I am going into the race with a goal and determination. I am training in a similar way, with doing longer runs on the weekend, a day or two of speedwork, and cross/strength training. We shall see how it goes!

After this race, I truly feel I am ready to tackle a full marathon! I will develop a plan for this, which includes proper nutrition. No skipping out on foods during MARATHON training! So I have to get my head in the right place first πŸ™‚

*Is anyone else looking forward to an upcoming race? Or one you completed that made you proud?

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Boston's Run To Remember

I have been enjoying writing this blog so much so far. It has been a great way for me to get out my thoughts, and simply reflect on my life. But honestly, the best part has been how people have responded to some of my posts or contacted me. It makes this whole experience so fulfilling to know that others understand and it motivates me to keep going with this delightful new hobby!

The direction of the blog still seems pretty unclear to me. I enjoy writing about what is on my mind, some daily eats, favorite products, people in my life, memories, and fitness. I am sorry if it seems all over the place, I am trying to get it into a more organized plan πŸ™‚

Okay back to this post!

RA work last night was quite an interesting experience! A few write-ups of note, a guy pulled an EXIT sign down on the 4th floor and made all of the lights go out in the building…this led to the alarms going off and emergency maintenance had to come asap! All was resolved, for the most part, the guy that pulled the sign down ran away and doesn’t live in the building so we couldn’t catch em! Grrr…Β  Other worthy mentions, a girl fight right outside the office I sit in! Everything was resolved though πŸ™‚

As I talk about often, running is one of my favorite forms of fitness and I keep myself motivated in the sport by singing up for different road races around the area. I have completed a number of 5ks, a few 10ks and 4 and 5 mile distances. Last year however, I took a major step in my running by singing up for a half-marathon, Boston’s Run To Remember! Although I was running cross country last year, I had never completed a run longer than 9 miles, but I believed I could do it.

I didn’t follow a specific plan, but continued doing some workouts with the track team, a long run on Saturdays (9-11 miles) and strength work during the week. This plan seemed to work for me because as much as I enjoy the sport, I do not like running more than two days in a row. I feel sluggish on the third day and usually am not into it.

On May 30th, I woke up atΒ  5 am and drove with my lovely mother to the Seaport Hotel, where the race began. On my way I hate greek yogurt and a banana, but realize now how much more I should have eaten before this long race. My mom tolerated me as I became nervous and bossy when I thought we were going to get lost..we didnt though and made it with plenty of time to spare!

I had picked up my race packet the day before so that saved a lot of stress and time the morning of the race. The race was starting at 7:30 but it was already 75 degrees out and climbing. It was supposed to be a hot one that day, ah well can’t do anything about the weather bu embrace it πŸ™‚ And I did just that, I realized I was going to be sweating bullets so needed to hydrate throughout the race. The course was relatively flat, with a few small inclines every so often, but truly nothing of concern.

It was a slow start while people spread out, but I met got up to pace around the second mile. Right from the beginning though, I felt so energized and simply awesome! . I completed this half-marathon, a distance I had never officially practiced. I finished with a time of 1:40, and let me tell you, I was so surprised!

This year on May 29th, I am participating in Boston’s Run To Remember again, and this year have a goal to PR! Last year it was to finish, now I am going into the race with a goal and determination. I am training in a similar way, with doing longer runs on the weekend, a day or two of speedwork, and cross/strength training. We shall see how it goes!

After this race, I truly feel I am ready to tackle a full marathon! I will develop a plan for this, which includes proper nutrition. No skipping out on foods during MARATHON training! So I have to get my head in the right place first πŸ™‚

*Is anyone else looking forward to an upcoming race? Or one you completed that made you proud?

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Summer Lovin

I wish I could say I am still up because I just returned after going out or something else of interest. However, my RA status requires me to be on duty tonight, but it’s always a great time to do homework, catch up on blogs, and relax. Looking at the positives! <– I just figured out how to do colors on WordPress, accomplishment for the night! πŸ™‚ I am one of the most technically challenged people you will meet, so creating this website has been quite a struggle, a fun one though!

Since it SNOWED this morning,

I wanted to brighten up night by showing some pictures taken from last summer and reminding myself of all the things we have to look forward to with the warmer temps.

Pool shenanigans

Tubing and water skiing in the ocean

Rock jumping! (or at least thinking about it πŸ™‚ )

Road races in shorts and tanks!

Relaxing on the beach with friends (I live right next to the ocean btw!)

Heart-pumping Triathlons

Intense Mud-Fun Races!

An entire summer to look forward to and embrace all the positive changes that will come with it!

What are you looking forward to this summer?

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